Children's blogs

I love reading about parenting blogs. Happy blogs about funny things their children do or say, how they are going to grow up, the little insights into their blossoming character, etc. It just feels so rewarding, knowing that the children are growing up beautifully.

And then, I start recalling my own childhood and compared it to the kids and digging deep into my character. Often, it is little children who show their true colors because they cant help it. They dont know how to hide the bad ones and they are bad at pretending. It is so easy for a parent to know what kind of children they are going to grow up into.

I have been dwelling on my own childhood for a while. Thinking about what kind of person I was then, and now, and how much changes I have made, good and bad, and how I still feel like Im wearing a mask of goodness, with those long-ago hated characteristics lying dorminant deep within me, surfacing every now and then, for all to see.

Halloween!

I just had to say it...

IM A ROCK GIRL...


for Halloween during Panam Party. I know, a very sick feverish, sneezy, coughing ROCK GIRL.

I told my friend about my rockin' outfit, and he didnt believe it. If I told you about it, and you havent seen me for four years, would you believe it? It is just so unlike me. The reason why I was a rock girl was because I had a black stocking I never wore and a black mini skirt that is a little too loose. So why not combine them together? Then, my roommate came up with a splendid idea. Wear a black shirt and my purple puma shoe and tata! Rock chick!

Total transformation, I tell you. I spilled some girl's drink, whom I know by name, and she totally didnt recognize me. I was apologizing to her today and she went, "IT WAS YOU?" I should not have told her it was me, -_- but I felt so guilty.

Another friend, who took the first picture of me and my friends in our halloween outfit went, "OHMIGOSH, LOOK AT THE ROCK GIRL." And then she leaned it closer to take a close up of me. Her boyfriend couldnt believe it either.


-_-

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By the way, I carved my first pumpkin, and its in the fridge. Because im too lazy to take the insides out. Bah.

Sick

I am suffering from all kinds of sickness.

Flu, cold, sore throat, cough, fever.

And then I went to Panam Party. I know, I know... BAD! But it is Halloween and I just couldnt resist. So I just pop a panadol for cold and gurgle my mouth with salt water for the sore throat.

Blame the sickness on the change of weather and my weak immune system.

I have not been taking good care of myself this system. In the earlier weeks, I remember suffering from flu...

What is wrong with me?

Why is my immune system so weak these days?

Argh!

Winter Plans

I am going to California.

Again.

Woot!

This time to different places in California. Almost different.

And I have to fly, 3 times.

That sucks.

My Happy Formula

When I am happy, I cant do anything.

The stress is just not there.

Bad.

Happy = Procastination

Bad.

Nike

My Nike shoe arrived today!!!

Happiness!!!

Purple Shoe

I bought a new Puma shoe today, in rich purple color. Very beautiful!




I was supposed to be doing my paper, but I didnt get anything done at all! Blame it on the blackout! So I went to Ross instead to return some clothes and a shoe store a few blocks away was having clearance because they were moving.



The prices were still pretty expensive even though slashed, but I managed to get my PUMA shoe for only 29.99!!! Exciting! This is good news since the padding on my old shoe is totally worn out and is peeking out. I have used it for 2 years straight to school and gym. Hehe. I hate changing shoe lah. I am very loyal when it comes to footwear.



But a few days ago, I ordered a Nike shoe online for 45 :) A little expensive compared to PUMA but hey, I hope I like it coz I seriously dont want to wear deep purple to school everyday! It's going to be so weird. My nike shoe is brown and pink! How cool is that?!

I feel so happy even thought I have like 50 pages to write and its due next week! Eek.

Btw, I didnt always like Puma. I disliked it till last year, when I first brought a black Puma bag for school coz it looked sturdy.

Then in Puerto Rico, I didnt have enough space in my luggage so I had to buy an extra bag and guess what! Puma again, because it was cheap and rather nice. All pure shimmering white.

And now this purple shoe! And I have a shirt too. I feel like a Puma ambassador. They should really pay me :)

BK

Yesterday, I saw a person seating on the bench.

My heart quickened a beat and my strides lengthened.

As soon as I walked past him, I exhaled slowly and quickly hopped on the second bus.

I took the longer bus ride instead of bus 40.

This is what happens with unresolved relationships - friends or otherwise.

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I am thinking that I should stop going online.

Bad. Bad. Bad.
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Cracked

Suddenly it became all crystal clear.

When my post was there, you thought.

When your post was there,I thought.

And then it crumbled, collasped.

Because there is no foundation.

And now, we are back where we belong.

Just friends.

Just ordinary friends.

I have to say,

it was fun meeting you,

my friend.

Cracked up to be.

Cracked is a useless word

to be.

Haha.

Oh cracked.

The Unloader

Since when did I become an emotional unloader.

By golly, it is hard.

Im sorry about the news, S.R. I had no idea. And yes, I dont care much for you. I dont know how much you care for me too. Obviously, it seems that you care a lot about me because you made it sound as if you put a lot of effort and time into it. How much is a lot, huh?

I dont care but I am sorry.

At least I care, even if it is not to your standard.

Questions

"You know - you're pretty insensitive sometimes..you with all of your activities and friends"

Questions:

1) What is this person feeling when he/she wrote that?

2) Why did the person write that?

The Circus Elephant

Sometimes I feel like I am on a show, with the spotlight put on me.

An uncomfortable show.

The feeling of being dragged around like a circus elephant, and all the ah's and wow's around me.

I hate it.

I know that the person is sincere, but I feel scared, afraid, frightened, trapped...picked apart.

Used.

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I dont know why I am so picky.

I like the idea of being in love.

But not in love.

I have come across many, but all have failed terribly, and now, I have a premonition that another one is going down. Or maybe it is just me, trying to stop the tide on both side.

Edit: Maybe I havent found the right one yet.
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OU-Texas Weekend

Just when I thought I would some free time to catch up on my homework during the weekend, I didnt do anything.

Friday was an off day because of the OU-Texas football game.

OU won. Yay!

On sunday, I went to my friend's pot luck.

I said, "I havent done any homework at all this weekend."

M.T. said with a huh-what expression, "What did you do?"

I replied dumbly, "Surf the net."

And then I had to think....and it only came to me hours later.

Thursday Night- Watch abc.com

Friday - clean apt and arrange MSA boxes, sleep, K.H. cheesecake, MSA bowling, Ihop

Sat - Dim Sum, Bubble Tea, G's apt, La Pasco Walk, G's apt and game, CaoN, Walmart, Home-Arrange furniture, Party. (damn productive)

Sun - Eat, nap, church, pot luck, study.

Hmm, procastination on studying. Why am I not suprised? I feel so out of school now, like I had a long holiday :)

The party was fun! :)

I figure out that if ever I want to post any pictures of people, it will be highly photoshop so much that the people will remain unrecognized, unless the person in the picture is known to the readers and are able to put on a face on the person.

The Bday Atmosphere

pls: When I am tipsy, my reaction is faster. I dont think that much. I act. I never got into the shower so quick before after reaching home. Eek. I smell.

September and October is definitely the birthday month here!!!

I feel like I have been eating cake every week.

S.Shutts's, WS's, mine, M.Sakurai., and there are a few more bday's going on but I didnt attend. Man, that's a lot.

I celebrated M.S's and B.L's bday with a bashing party. I drank one and a half shot of whiskey and Im already feeling rather tipsy and one alcoholic drink of gin and something.

I had a great time. M.S's a fun guy to be with when he is drunk. Haha.

And of course, B.L. I met him two years ago. He still remembered when we first met (plus CI and R.N), and it took me a while before I could remember. Haha. OU cousins. That's right. Glad to see he really didnt forget us after the event. Cheers.

And Happy birthday to JL too...and the rest before and after :)

There are so many bday's going on!!! If you read my facebook profile, its all "thank you for wishing me happy bday, etc etc!"

Last year, almost half of the malaysians celebrated their bday in september and that's a lot! Too bad some had to leave OU ...

I already forget the name of the Indian guy I was talking to. He is really funny. Hahaha. When he first came, I recognize him, but I didnt know where. He told me that I once asked him not to drink Coke in the computer lab where I was working in. Haha. So we spoke for a while. And later on, the girls (E.A, A.M, me) pull him to dance in the living room with M.S, C.G.L. and another guy. Once the randoim dancing was over, E.A kept pushing him down by knocking her hips onto his. So I tried it and he did go down. Hahaha. I took a picture of me knocking him down too. It is basically for fun, trying to act drunk or giving in more to temptation/less inhibitation.

Soon after, I left and came home to see my cousin watching tv! What! She left the party early coz she said she was tired and I came home to see her watching tv! Unbelievable tv addict :)

When it becomes reality...

The keyboard decided to riot and started acting up two hours before my 12,500 word paper was due.

So I played system restore with my computer.

I won.

J Test

I am smarter than I thought.

I scored 98 on my japanese when the average was just 87?

Hahahahaha. Oh yea. Now Im talking. ;p

I have to say, it came as a BIG surprise. I seriously thought I was going to get a B or C because I "messed up" on the listening. I knew the answers but I didnt know what ending to use.

I also thought I "messed up" on the location and place sentences.

The last page, I didnt know how to translate the english to japanese. I tried.

And I also didnt know what the meaning of one word I had to explain was.

In the end, I guess the ending for listening, hoped my location and place sentences were correct, translate some sentence twice before I hoped I got it right and guessed the meaning of one definition. If I didnt have my correction tape with me, I swear the papers will be filled with blue scratched marks all over.

It was also kind of my fault for being over confidence and spending less than an hour to study.

Ok. So I got 98.

Laugh with me. Wahahahahaha.

LUCKY!!!