Flabbergasted

She knows.

How did she know?

And I thought I kept it all hushed.

I even tried to hide the evidence.

"So it is official?" she asked.

I didnt reply her nor did I deny it.

To be honest, I was too shocked and embarrassed.

But yes, it is official.

Black Friday

Just getting out of Norman on Black Friday was fun.

The shopping was fun too. I bought nothing.

Savings = 100 percent.

I wish I could say the same for my camera though.

It broke.

In the dying dusk, my friend turned to me and said, "Dont you wish it was black friday today?"

Then I could have bought a new camera earlier ... at a better price.

Ask

My life, is a mess.

A big mess.

That I dont know what to do about.

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Thanksgiving is starting this week!

Wheeeee!

I will have so much food to eat!

And a long holiday too, starting from wed to sun!

I am so looking forward.

I dont know what to do for thanksgiving.

Should I travel to texas or go to my friend's house to celebrate thanksgiving?

I can always travel to texas. And I want to go to my friend's house at the same time.

But my friend havent brought up the question since the first time it was asked. And now, I am left hanging. Do I wait for my friend to ask or do I just assume that it was a forget-it question?

Hmph.

I hate asking.

Asking.

I either have it or I dont.

I have already sent the message, but who knows?

Should I be upset if I dont have it?

Should I be sad, if the other isnt?

I dont think so.

Darn it.

I hate waiting.

It's a bunch of nerves.

I feel like I'm wearing the pants, and I dont know whether to be happy or sad.

Misunderstanding

I know...

Miscommunication = so tough.

Especially when it's just starting.

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I like your new car, D.W.

I didnt know we were still so familiar with each other. Is it because of our past?

Strangely, I was thinking of you when you called. Gave me a fright. But its just to show off your new car... hehehe :)

I hate games.

Dont all of us hate games.

But most of all, I hate it when I am at a disadvantage.

When I cannot read the person.

And the guessing game begins.

But I hate it.

And I want to stop it.

Make it go away.

This feeling of wanting.

Fly free.

Are we?

No.

No.

Remember?

We said no.

Bare

It is so hard to write when you think people you dont want reading your blog, suddenly stumbled upon it and figured out, 'Hey, its you.'

I pray that doesnt happen to me.

I can hear my fingers frantically pressing the edit button.

Edit > Draft.

Edit > Draft.

Suddenly, the blog seems so bare.

Girls and Weight

It took me so long, but I finally did it.

I got my weight to go down back to my upper secondary school days. I have been maintaining my weight for the past five years, so its really good to know I can still lose weight again! I hope I can maintain that weight now.

The difference is not a lot, but it shows I can do it!

Now, I am aiming to go back to my weight in my lower secondary school days. It is really not a lot of difference, about two kg, but it is just so hard for me to lose even a small amount.

I mean, I havent grown taller, but my weight has increases steadily. So really, going back to my weight in lower secondary is a possibility and a dream! Hehehe.

I doubt no one will notice, but at least it makes me and my jeans happy!

PLS: I hate the question, "Am I Fat?" No matter how fat I think I am, I would never ask it, except to my cousin, coz we are family and family always give good criticizim, even when you dont want to hear it. I always simply state if the occasion is right, "I think I grow fat already".

How do I know? Jeans, people. My jeans. Trust me, if it doesnt fit nicely, its time to hit the gym at least three times before my jeans can fit snugly again.

Note: According to me = fat = unnecessary weight gain = not in my best shape. Not overweight. I hate to say fat and then people would think, "Oh, but you look okay." I just want to be fit. Cant help it, especially once you know you were fit, with all those gold medal for fitness test :) I always score in my running and flexibility and sit up. Dont ask about running, I have no clue especially now that I take such a long time to run 2.4, it makes me wonder how I accomplish it under 12 minutes during high school. Shuttle run and jumping are my worse event. I cant sprint or jump.

My brother always says, "D, you are so fat!" And then he will hit my thighs with the back of his hand and make it juggle. -_-

Well, to console myself, I went back home last winter and he is now so fat! Ahahahaha. He has become flabby. To much protein shake and not enough exercise. Damn plump now lah he, compared to how skinny he was last time. He's been going to the neighborhood gym, but I havent seen him in a long while. It's okay. I will still say, "USELESS LAH". Bleh.