Possibilities

I am thinking...maybe there is really no point in staying anymore.

POINTLESS.

I am staying on a 0.01 percent excuse of a wish.

My parents just leave yesterday morning and dad has been planting ideas in my head.

"I want to do my masters in OU."
"But why? It's so far!" said Mom.
"How about spore or australia?" said Dad.

The only reason why I am doing masters is to continue staying in US, oklahoma specifically, or at least, stay away from home. There is really no reason for me to continue my studying if I am going back to spore. But then, I dont mind studying in Australia either, even if Im kinda sick of studying.

There has been recent changes in OPT. If I cant find a job in three months, Im not legal to stay in US. I dont know what to do if I really dont find a job. Like I said, I dont want to go back in three months time. It is too soon!

But then, maybe there is no point in staying in Oklahoma and I should just move on with my life.

Like... do the 360 degrees change. Uproot myself once again and head on in a new direction.

Sometimes, I think if I did that, life would be easier and less painful. There is afterall, no one to consider staying for.

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If I am to go back home to msia, it will be in October. I'll see... I'll see...

Only time will tell...

Worms

I graduated.

Yay.

Fullstop.

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I dont like it when parents come.

I dont think I like talking to them much, even when they mean well.

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I hate feelings.

I never had to deal with it before.

Maybe that's why ... I hate feelings.

I hate worms.

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Amazing

Until yesterday, I never realized how strong my will was.

Amazing.

In order to stick to deadline of finishing my 20 page paper on saturday, I actually started my paper on friday and stayed back in school till saturday to finish it. The paper was due on monday. Mine you, I am so not kidding. I slept on the school couch with the light shinning harshly down on me. It was not fun.

Reasons why I am so amazing.
1) I wrote my paper on a friday!
2) I went to a dinner and had to decline my friend's party to return to school to study at 11pm.
3) I decided not to return home and stay in school to study!
4) I slept at 4 am.
5) I woke up at 10 am and continued my paper!
6) I finished at 4pm. Just right before the MSA bbq!
7) I actually met my own personal deadline!

Now, I must inform you that I am no slacker. I did not purposely wait till friday to start writing the paper. I had 2 projects that I had to finish by tuesday and have a test on monday that i needed to study for. Anyway, long story.

Bascially, I am amazing.