Japanese update!

I was crossing the large field of grass this morning when it suddenly hit me.

Boys cannot be just friends.

Then it hit me again.

I have no friends.

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Japanese class is super fun. Im glad I have it everyday! And I made lots of friends in class too! It is the only class where I can turn to someone and say, "Hey, what does this mean", or "Have you studied yet", or "How did your quiz go?"

I think jap class is the only class where I actually talk to my neighbors. In other classes, I just sit, stare, write, forced to discuss (when the time comes), and leave.

And Im so glad my jap class neighbors consist of one extra talkative thick skin guy, one JSA, one TSA, one new msian, one know-it-all and me-caught-in-the-middle.

Lalalalala. Yay!

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Kindness for false hopes does not pay. It kills everything.

Japanese

Im taking it this semester.

My bedtime story

My cousin just came back from her internship and as much as she gets on my nerves at times, sometimes just because she is too fussy and clean and well, a little mad coz I dont wash the dishes asap, she is still my cousin and it is good to have someone, a family member, around.

I have been glad. At the same time, feeling that my friends have change during the summer internship while I remained, according to me, same. Relationships strained, broken, new, or renewed.

One friend has gotten involved with a butch.

Another friend is fed up and mad at another.

Next fell in and out of love.

So many so fast so much.

It is a little unreal now. Listening to my cousin's story and just trying to comprehen everything.

Revamp

Im so happy. I got rid of some of my apartment's old stuff.

Like soup scoup, knifes, photoframes, vegetable strainer and two large plastic bowls, old pot and pan, small pink tier stand, one pillow, a lamp, rubbish bin, extension cord.

Yea! Now I (house) have less stuff. I feel great because I reduce waste and money. I feel like Im an orang guni, you know, the man who always comes to your door and ask if you want to sell your newspapers. Hahaha.

I wish I get paid for recycling. Sigh. Here, I just throw everything into a recycling bin and get nothing. Not that I mind, but I used to remember those days where they pay you for your waste. Like $$$ per kg. Not much. My mom gets a dollar or two for one big TALL stack, but it is still fun.

And suddenly, I realised that my ex-roommate left a bunch of soft toys on my cousin's bed. Since she is coming back tonight, *gasp*, I had to do something about the toys. I used it to decorate my couch and the mattress in the living room.

I realise I still have a lot of stuff to do...before dear o' cousin comes back. She is rather picky, clean, and likes to have less stuff. She is always complaining that I have too much clothes, when actually, it is just a little more than hers. It is not like I have mountains of clothes. The only reason why we like to get rid of stuff is because we think it is easier when we move out, to other states or back to kampung village.

Sigh. Im tired. I think I will sleep before doing anything. Zzzzzz

To belaL

The police was giving an information session to the new international students.

"It cant be hard to get a driving license because I got mine," he said with a straight face.

I laughed.

My friend, in shock, said, "Dont laugh. It is not funny. I dont like police."

I laughed again.

I love hanging out with friends whom I can connect with instantly.

Lucky Seven

I PASSED!!! Yes!!!

So a few things happened this summer.

One: I got a cellphone.
Reason: My roommate left for good to Malaysia and I took over his plan.

Two: I passed my driving written test!!! The service was damn turtle. I waited for one and a half hours to take the test because only one computer was used. Then I had to go to the TAG agency to process my license. So I had to travel again and wait for another hour because there were many turtles around, including technical malfunctioning turtles.
Reason: Forced myself or risk my cousin's wrath since she was coming back the next day -.-

Three: Gave away two mattresses.
Reason: Got 3 for free from a couple moving to a new apartment. My apartment now has 5 mattresses, even after giving away 2. I left one mattress in the living room because it doubles up as a guest bed. Hahaha.

Four: Read lots of storybooks.
Reason: For fun and some for school.

Five: Cooking inventive lazy (dai cao - big fry) dishes.
Reason: Or the food will spoil.

Six: Clear out rubbish (old notes) in my room and did a little reorganizing.
Reason: Bored.

Seven: Sold some books on amazon.
Reason: Money, more space in my shelf and I have been trying to get rid of them all year.

That's it! The lucky seven of summer 07. Hehehe. Im so inventive. Yea right.

Cheers to the lucky seven.

Agape Love

'Do Dogs Feel Love?'

http://pets.yahoo.com/dogs/behavior-and-training/316/do-dogs-feel-love/

"The highest form of love, agape love, which is completely unconditional, is something that people often have to work at or grow into. Agape love seems to come naturally between parent and child, but it’s more difficult between husband and wife, and harder still between friends. To love someone regardless of what wrongs they have done you is very difficult for humans."

"Learning to know somebody intimately is often the beginnings of dislike, sometimes even of contempt."

"A dog, however, is born with an endless capacity for agape love, and doesn’t even have to work at it...He’s just happy you’re there. More amazing still, is that the love that dogs and owners feel for each other lasts a lifetime. This is the ideal love humans strive for, but often fail at."

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Why do I feel that the above quote is so true? Esp the one in blue. Knowing someone, knowing too much disrupts and destroy friendship, or at least pricks the bubble of an ideal rainbow world.

Keep your distance,
near and far,
be a stone,
rock, mountain,
and the hollow trees,
in the roaring wind.

Keep a secret,
in and out,
manifest not,
in dear life,
and hidden long,
seem small after.

Weird Cooking Style

You cannot imagine how hard it is to survive without snacks. I normally have one real meal a day. The rest of the day consist of snacks. Ever since my roommate left last thursday, I have eating chocolate, drinking can soup, and munching on DRY cereal. Dry, because I ran out of milk. Oh, and ice cream.

And while there is still "food" in the fridge...tofu, bean sprout, bai cai, 3 mushroom, and some wilted herbs. Hahaha.

In the freezer, I have red bean and lotus bao, roti prata and yea, ice cream.

While I can eat bao in the morning, I really cant because I have to steam them first and my wok (used for steaming too) is in the fridge with one week's meal of potatos, bean sprout and minced pork. Yea. One week's meal - once a day mah.

I didnt know that it took such a LONG time to cook the potatos. I fried them for ages with the bean sprout and pork but it was still a little tough inside. So today, I made potato soup. Hahaha. Boil some of those damn potatos and it tasted really good! What a surprise for a lousy cooker! :)

I think it was because my potato has been fried with pork + bean sprout + onions + chili sauce + salt + white pepper + tomato sauce. All I did was add a little more salt and chili sauce to the water and wah, the potato damn tasty! Hahahaha. I think if my roommate had seen me cooking, he would have fainted. Hahahaha. I mean, WHO cooks potato and minced pork with bean sprout!?

I actually wanted to cook the pork + bean sp. + onions but I didnt know what to do with the stupid potatos. So I just cooked everything together ;p Hehehehe....

But ohhh, it turns out so fine when I boiled the semi hard potatos that I decided I am going to cook wan tan mee tomorrow :) Hehehehe.

Left over potatos + bean spr + pork + mee + bai cai + mushroom...

Wahahaha. Delicious!

pls: There is a big-ass cricket in my room!!! Im never going to sleep until I catch it!!! Grrr!!!

Rantings

I have been seeing lots of beaches in pictures, especially now that it is summer.

Now, I ask you. What is so great about beaches?

Im sorry but I hate them. They are nothing extraordinary. I think its extremely boring to go to beaches for holidays. What's the deal with them? All beaches look the same to me.

Griny sand, sky blue water, foam, curling waves, surf boards, hot looking people, fat people, skinny people, bikinis, dogs, food, water botter, sun tan lotion...

So what's the fuss with them? All those pictures about beaches are making me ill, sick to the stomach. Famous beaches, not so famous beaches, normal beaches. Whatever. They all look the same to me, feel the same, smell the same.

It is like eating rice, soft rice, hard rice, watery rice. Except for beaches, the difference is ZERO percent. At least rice has flavor and different texture.

And so, I am hating beaches. Dont get me wrong. I have loathe them since I was very young. There is nothing more boring than going to beaches and having to endure the same experience of the wave hitting your back, salty water, bright light, sticky hair, rough sand and skin cancer.

My friend once commented on MY FUTURE HUSBAND.

Eh, I dont have a boyfriend yet leh, now talking about husband?

She said, "I pity your future husband, you get bored so easily. I think you like to have a lot excitement."

*smiles wirly* Thanks for the observance.

But oh so true, I need LOTS of excitement. Hey, just because I like to stay at home doesnt mean I am boring. Before I left my home country for oh-so-great U.S., I was full of frustrations. It was too boring. Too boring. My country is too boring!!! There is nothing to do but go for movies, eat out, karaoke. My only savior was ice skating but I didnt have a car, so I couldnt go there anytime I wanted. Besides, on some days and on some times, it was too crowded.

So I left for U.S., enjoyed. Have fun. I am still not bored yet, only because life is a little exciting without parents around, relatives judging my every action (like secret spies, their frowns so apparent). I love being on my own, so much freedom, so much space, and endless possibilities!

I think I will "die" of frustration if I ever go back and live there forever. Or maybe not. As long as I'm out of my parent's rule, I am fine.

But beaches, boyfriends, parents. I am sorry, but haha! I'm glad to be free of them. So constricting, so annoying.

Haih, at this rate. Welcome to spinsterhood! Seriously, I mean, the last time I went back, even my MOM! mention the word, "husband". Er, mom, I dont even have a bf yet so I dont think I will get married and move away that fast.

*roll eyes* I am ALREADY away!

Books

I have been reading much this summer and I realised I have very little authors that I really like. But here are the best of the best according to ...ME.

In random order, of the top of my head and the books that I love BEST! I simply cannot live without them :) Basically five stars plus one because they are just so memorable.

1) L. J. Smith (Everything except vampire diaries)
2) Juliet Marillier ( The Sevenwaters Trilogy)
3) Diana Wynn Jones (Chestomanci series)
4) Victoria Holt ( Demon Lover)
5) Tamora Pierce ( Immortals and Song of the Lioness)

Books that I love best but still able to survive if they are returned to the library. Sigh.
6) David Feintuch (Midshipman's Hope --- the only one I read so far...hehe)


Okay, so I have run out of ideas. Im sure there are somemore out there. Hmmm...

tata!

Spore :)

Happy independence Singapore!

:)

Wishes for all around.

May you be as clean and green as can be.

Jeff Buttle

I have found the perfect male specimen in...

Jeffrey Buttle...

*smile growing stupidly wider*

check him out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pu6CDz6P6Qk&mode=related&search

So Im been stalking him on youtube for a few days, but hey, all's fine. I was just listening to the music, you know.

On the other hand, I really really want to skate now. Or pick up skating again.

M L6

I bought a new cell phone!!! Hehehe...

My roommate is going to pass his phone to me after he leaves for malaysia and his phone wai-wai-de wan, aka something wrong.

So heh, I HAVE to buy a new unlock cellphone. If you have seen US cellphones, most of them are outdated or discontinued. They remind me of all those oldies cars on the road, which no one has seen in ages. But while the cars look anciently classy and sometimes cute-in-a-way, the cellphones are vomitingly ill. I wonder how US can be so far back in cellphone technology, almost three to five years back and that's a lot considering how cellphone technology has rapidly advance.

Anyway, I bought my *new* cellphone on Ebay. I think it is discontinued but it is still sold cheaply in some places, which gives me the impression that is either made in CHINA! (cheap labor) or refurbished. Whatever.

So, here goes nothing....presenting...

MOTOROLA L6!

Yes!

Or wait, you dont even remember it...

Forget it then.

Bought it for like $107.

Told you. Expensive piece of outdated discontined phone.

Whatever. It better work or I will be pissed.


pls: Im really FURIOUS with the cellphone plans for T mobile. After using it for 2 years and reaching the end of the contract, you have to renew a 2 year plan if you want a better (yea right, more like ancient) phone. What kind of stupid rule is that! Freaking dumb, I tell you. I am disgusted.

The Slave

Bills bills and more bills.

I am dying under this thin paperless substance of sucking bills.

The suck all the good things out of you like fun and happiness.

I was just thinking of a way to save up more money, when I realized it is really difficult to do that considering that there are rents, groceries, going out with friends, and later on, tuition, books, and of course, THE CELLPHONE!!!

More bills to pay. Ill.

So now my monthly expenditure will be averagely 500? That is too much!!! More than the amount I earn!!!

Arrggh. I am dying again.

Of course, there are ways to overcome money flying away.

1) Go out with boys who pay for you.
2) Become president of some cultural organizations and you get to go to cultural nights for free! as well as go to PANAM parties for free!
3) Download movies.
4) Stop hanging out with friends and Im serious unless no money is involved! :)
5) Stop eating outside.
6) Sell away books :)
7) Stop buying snacks and diet everyday.
8) Bring food to school.
9) Dont ever succumb to deals if you dont need said item.
10) Go to events that have free food.


Bah!

Cherries and blueberries

Not so long ago, I tried some common fruits here.

Cherries and blueberries.

Not the preserved sweet cherries or the blueberries you see squashed in the middle of a cake.

These are fresh.

The cherries are red, like apples. Not harsh bright red. Round and a little heart shaped. 1/4 of the size of an apple. Smooth skin with a firm touch. And the sweetest juice spilling out as you taste a bite...and of course, you have to spit out the seed...

Blueberries are oval, small. A little bigger than a pea. Texture of a grape but much more sourish although you can still taste a hint of the sweetness.

Yummy. I have to say that Cherries surpassed my expectations...blueberries, what a letdown. I always thought they were sunkissed sweet...but they were still fun to eat :)

Confession

I have to admit, I am not a girl...

...at least, when it comes to shoes.

I use to own only 4 pairs of footwear. 2 flip flops, one sport shoe, one black shoe.

Recently, I bought 2 pairs of flip-flops, because they are so cheap. $2 per pair. How can I say no? Besides, my old flip flop was becoming squeaky and loose, but they are o' so uncomfortable that I ditched my $2 flip flops for the old flip flop again.

And now, I'm thinking of buying another pair of shoe. I was bored. And decided to do a little online window shopping. But then, I came upon MBT shoes...

Sweet argh, the urge to buy came upon me again...

One pair of MBT shoe cost a shocking $245...


*Money, money, please rain down on me.*



Edit: My most expensive purchase...to be soiled. Oh how fun! I can't believe I bought it. As a consolation, my money is wisefully spent since im going to wear that shoe every school day. Yes, no kidding, I truly only wear ONE pair of shoe to school, and I always make sure it doubles up as a sport shoe too. As for my old shoe, I will wear it on rainy and snowy days.

Edit 2: I returned it. It was too expensive.

R n W

I am too sleepy/tired. For the last few days, I am doing what my friend calls, Reading and Writing.

He calls me, takes me out to some bookstore and we basically write.

So every night, Im forced to write, which is good, because I wouldnt have done anything on my own.

And now, some feelings came up and we have to stop reading and writing.

Stupid feelings.

And Im still tired from all those nights spent writing. I need sleep.

How exciting!

I am going to get a cell phone soon. Finally. After one year of disconnection from the world and maybe friends, I WILL have to get a cell phone soon. Not that I want but my roommate is returning to msia and the original plan was for me to take over his line, but I could also open a new line.

I should be excited and I am, but I feel that cell phone bills are extremely expensive for NO reason! The minimum monthly bill is 30 dollars and the phones are extremely lousy. I mean, they are still selling those old models which I think have expired or ceased to exist in asia - those with an antenna, with no colored screens, ... you get the point.

And for some reason, Motorola Razer is the hype here...it's been highly promoted and sold cheaply. But I HATE IT. The sight of it can make me cringe. That was like so last year but it is still selling now...and will be still sold in like...a few years down the road.

Given the expensive ridiculous cell phone plans and extremely ancient phones, it is no wonder I put off using phones for an entire year. No kidding. The year before, I was SHARING a phone with my cousin until she left for summer and took the phone with her and so it eventually became her phone. Besides, not having the phone is a BIG advantage to me. For example, unwanted suitors will have a hard time finding me...muahaha. And, I will never suffer embarresment in class if my phone rings. And, I save lots of money every month. And, I can have eternal peace and quiet every day.

Disadvantage is ... I will have a hard time finding people and vice versa. But seriously, I dont really care coz I seldom call and get calls from others anyway. It is like...10 calls or less per week. So heck the phone lah. I dont really need it.

The only thing that concerns me is ... work and finding jobs = cell phone and more bills.

I. Hate. Cellphone. Bills. Wow. How. Exciting.

Professor.

Oh my gosh. I am absolutely shocked.

I just found out that MEL ODOM is my teacher in fall.

MEL ODOM. I cannot believe it!!!!

I dont know whether to be laugh or cry. On one hand, I would absolutely love to be taught by him, and on the other hand, I dont know what to expect.

MEL ODOM. WOW.

Directions

At work.

Stranger: "Hello, where is the vending machine?"
Me: "It's next to the toilet."
Stranger: "Where is the toilet?"
Me: "Go straight and turn right."
Stranger: "Oh, you mean it's AROUND THE CORNER?"

I feel such a fool. I am directionally challenged.


On risky business.
How do you tell a guy, whom you wish to be only friends with, that you dont welcome his advances. And to make matters worse, you are sort of in a relationship with him. When or how did this happen?