On My Mind.

S.R. : "You know, D.L., for someone who never does anything, you're always pretty conveniently busy when it comes to doing anything with me."

D.L. : "Open your eyes. I told you twice. Friends. But even still, you insist on seeing me frequently. I wouldn't mind but for the fact that I FEEL I bring out the worse side in you - depression, which is another reason why I don't want to hang around you.

Besides, I don't trust your intentions, because I know you haven't gotten over me and I cannot fully be myself until we are JUST FRIENDS. If I be myself and smile, laugh and do whatever that makes me happy, you might get the wrong idea. That's why whenever I'm around you, I shut myself down and become nothing more than a hollow shell.

And seriously, I don't like hanging around depressed people or people who wallow in self-pity. I understand depression. I understand loneliness. Everyone has gone through that phrase some times. But I do not show it in front of my friends. If I do, I say a quick excuse and pretend that its all tiredness that is zapping my strength."

I just wished I had shown you my true answer.