Possibilities

I am thinking...maybe there is really no point in staying anymore.

POINTLESS.

I am staying on a 0.01 percent excuse of a wish.

My parents just leave yesterday morning and dad has been planting ideas in my head.

"I want to do my masters in OU."
"But why? It's so far!" said Mom.
"How about spore or australia?" said Dad.

The only reason why I am doing masters is to continue staying in US, oklahoma specifically, or at least, stay away from home. There is really no reason for me to continue my studying if I am going back to spore. But then, I dont mind studying in Australia either, even if Im kinda sick of studying.

There has been recent changes in OPT. If I cant find a job in three months, Im not legal to stay in US. I dont know what to do if I really dont find a job. Like I said, I dont want to go back in three months time. It is too soon!

But then, maybe there is no point in staying in Oklahoma and I should just move on with my life.

Like... do the 360 degrees change. Uproot myself once again and head on in a new direction.

Sometimes, I think if I did that, life would be easier and less painful. There is afterall, no one to consider staying for.

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If I am to go back home to msia, it will be in October. I'll see... I'll see...

Only time will tell...