Decisions

How can life go from so much happiness to saddness and back over again?

How can my mood changes so quickly...

from helplessless, to secure, to insecurity, to depression, to happiness, to anxiety, to worry, to a sense of blackness...to want to stop...everything...just stop...because my heart is torn.

how can I be confounded with so much decisions that it breaks my heart and makes me depressed, just to decide...

So much decisions....

if only my future is known...

how much less painful it will be...

it breaks my heart so...

just to decide...

and wonder if there is any hope and happiness at the end of the road...

That is what I am aiming for....

hope and happiness at the end of the road, but will my decisions be true or will they turn ugly?


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I was trying to find a happy uplifting song from the sound of music when I came across this song...

You by Jim Brickman and Tara MacLean

I never felt alone, I was happy on my own.
And who would ever know there was something missing?
I guess I didn't see the possibility, it was waiting all the time,
but it never crossed my mind, till you opened up my eyes.

Now all I think about is you, in my life, in my dreams,
in my heart I know it's true that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what I'd do without you.

I never thought love could be such a curiousity.
What attracted you to me was so unexpected,
but it was waiting all of the time and it never
crossed my mind, till you opened up my eyes.

Now I all I think about is you, in my life, in my dreams,
in my heart I know it's true, that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what I'd do without you.

You, in my life, in my dreams, in my heart,
I know it's true that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms,
I have everything and now I can't imagine what i'd do.

Without you, in my life, in my dreams, in my heart
I know it's true, that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what i'd do.
I can't imagine what i'd do.. Without you...