Me

I think there is a reason why I dont want any relative, especially sibling, to be connected to me on facebook.

I dont want news of what I have been doing to spread, even if I am doing nothing wrong.

I just hate it when my parents or anyone questions me about etc, etc, etc.

I know it must have hurt them that I never tell them anything, almost like their daughter never exist, but I still dont tell them a thing. I dont like people prying into my life. I dont like people understanding me because I feel trapped in a stereotype, an image. It makes me conform to their image and I find it hard to break out of convention when I need/feel like it.

That's why I hate the phone. I hate it when they call me because I have nothing to say.

And they ask such irritating and irrelevant questions like:

-please eat more meat, what you cook, how do you go to Walmart, have you done your laundry, can you please check out the price of xxx, etc, etc, who did you go out with, what is your friend's name...

I just dislike parent's curiosity and I hate telling them the answers too, because it is so redundant, boring, old news, "stupid" in a sense that those questions are meaningless and frivolous to me.

It makes me wanna just burst when they ask, because HELLO! I have been handling myself for so many years, on my own, so what is the difference between now and then? Just hearing their voices, seeing them makes me want to cringe because my peace disappears.

There is a reason why I like staying in my room, with just my own thoughts to occupy me, because I treasure the thinking, not the talking. I like the silence. It is peaceful, and in touch with my soul. Anything is possible. I can change, I can dream. It is my wonderland.

My parents voices are like the opposite. They bring intrusion into my private space.

My friends are different. They bring me news, updates and nothing more. I dont mind them calling because it gets me out into the world and keep me from boredom.

I am an extremely private person and extremely vague at times. Everything I write are my thoughts and not actions.

I hate publicising - the reason why my blog is so boring, so void of pictures.

To be fair, I keep to myself whenever I can and so far, I havent regretted it.

About the facebook and letting relatives connect to me, I think I will eventually fall victim to it.

I just hate disappointing the young ones, especially when they look up to you. Makes me feel sick.

Edit: Relatives on facebook? No way.