Aura, Karma, who knows?

I always had a sense of luck.

If Im feeling negetive, everything bad happened.


If Im feeling positive, everything goes right.

Have you ever been in that situation?


Well, apparently, I was feeling rather down for the last few days. Think depression, but not as bad.


I must have an overwhelming aura of negativity buzzing around me because the next thing I knew, I was in a car accident.


It was almost as if I brought it to myself. Sometimes, I think I did.


I was feeling sorry for myself on sunday and monday because of my fever and I wanted to skip classes so badly that, ok, here you go... Let's get her involved in a car accident.


It was monday night, around 9pm to 910pm. I was on campus. My cousin's car was in a parallel parking on the side of the road. It was dark. I walked over to the passenger's seat without noticing traffic from the other direction. I was feverish and I just wanted to go home. I had my back facing the road and was ready to open the door when suddenly, an SUV/Jeep zoomed past closely and something hard hit my upper back. I fell down at the impact on my butt. My cousin was horrified. I quickly stumbled to the sidewalk, bent over in a squatting position. My small section of my lips were bruised, as well as my butt. My back, of course, hurt the most. I didnt cry. I was more in shock at the situation. The SUV/Jeep had left. My cousin and I didnt take note of the license plate or anything because it was going too fast. According to my cousin, bits of pieces fell of the car. It was a large chunk. Probably the size of a mirror, I suspect since only my upper back got hit, as well as my left shoulder.


My cousin quickly took me to the hospital. I could walk, and move my right hand, but I could not move my left shoulder or my back. I had to walk straight everytime, like a robot. But when I move either arms, my back would hurt again, because of the connecting muscles. So here I was, in the hospital emergency section awaiting my turn for the doctors to look at me. Apparently, they must have thought it was not serious since I wasnt crying and I was walking too. It took 2 hours plus before everything was done, including an X-ray of my back and chest.


The doctors just gave my painkillers and asked me to get it at Walgreens.


Later, the police arrived at my house to get a statement. It was rather late when I finally got to sleep, around 2 am.

So here is my story, lots of bruises. I slept on my right side the entire night and I think my right butt is going to bruise too. Argh.

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I really want to go for japanese class tomorrow, but I dont know. Argh. Thinking about a certain someone makes me depressed and scared because I know all he's going to do is leave and not care. It makes me sad, knowing that the person I care the most doesnt care for me. I know. Life is a bed of roses. I chose the wrong one and now, life is a bitch. No worries. All I need to do is find someone else. Someone better. I know I can do it. I am just waiting for someone.